Reminisce
I’m feel nostalgic today…well recently I’ve felt that way. It happens from time to time, especially when I have a series of bad days (or rough times). I’m hoping that the rest of this month can go without some kind of family tradgedy happening. I’ve been through more this year than I ever have in the past. I’m tired of having bad things happen. I’m pretty sure this is a result of karma from Abu Dhabi. I’ve always lived my life in a respectful, polite, mature and caring manner; but Abu Dhabi changed me for the worst and I think this past year just showed me that Karma does exist.
Today is the first day of the year for me. I left Abu Dhabi one year ago on Oct 1 and Neil left America yesterday on year ago. I have officially paid my dues with my bad deeds as of yesterday. This “New Year” for me will be better. (Or at least I hope.)
I’ve gotten back into volunteering. I’m dragging Matt with me. We’re going to volunteer for as many charities as I can find, and I am going to do it. I’m tired of making promises to myself and not keeping true to them. I am going to work out like I used to love doing, and I will get my body back to the shape it was one year ago (in December, not how it was when I came back from Abu Dhabi).
I will learn to love myself again. I will learn to respect my family with the respect the deserve (not hit the ignore button when they call.) I am going to re-build the bonds with my friends. I’ve lost everyone that was important to me in the course of the last year, and it’s done. I can’t live my life this way.
I’ve had a bad week. I’ve had a bad month/year really. I hope this makes it better.
